Anonymous
It might sound naive but I never expected grief to be so hard. I thought my suffering would produce greater discernment but I only feel more confused and afraid of being mislead again. I feel afraid I’ve been ruined for relationship forever and will miss or unintentionally reject God’s blessing for my life if/when he does bring an open door into my path, a new future, a God-ordained marriage, I’m afraid I’ll condemn what he has called blessed because of my doubt and fear. I want to live in victory but I’m so confused and so broken and I don’t know what direction obedience to God looks like for me right now. I need so much help.